Friday, May 22, 2009

Just my luck

Well, this is the very first blog of mine. Actually i have the intention to start a blog, especially during my trip as a student exchange in japan. hmm, maybe i'll write one blog about my fantastic trip in Japan.

Okay, it's continue my topic today. I mean where's my luck? At this moment, i am thinking that all my lucks in my entire life had been used up. Or, do i really have any luck? Maybe i'm a 100% luck-less people. Oh, how pathetic i'm.

This morning, i checked my results for my reappeal matriculation. Again, i got the same result. 'Dukacita dimaklumkan anda tidak berjaya.' Actually i don't put high hopes in it, even if i really get it i also not sure whether i'm going for it. But still, my spm result is not that good like straight a 1, but it's not that bad at least i get straight As. i think that i had applied for about ten sholarship but all in vain. At least you give me a matriculation right? Just show me that i'm not that bad luck. Currently i'm studying in form 6. Form 6 is not that bad actually but what makes me worry is that i'm afraid that it's too tough for me and i can't cope with it. Everyone keep on assuring me with ' if you think you can, you can ' and etc but nah, deep down, i'm still worrying. I never think that choosing your own path could be this difficult. Anyway, is form 6 my choice? Not really actually. No jpa scholarship, no matriculation, what's left is form 6. College? nah. i'm still not that mature for it. Besides, other people pay rm 10000++ for A-level but i only paid rm 100 for form 6.

Till now, i am still wondering about the same moot ques. Where's my luck? I never win anything in a lucky draw, teachers hate me, i always fall down, i look terrible everyday(thanks to my hair), well, the list is endless.

Anyhow, there's still remnants of my luck. I have a 'magnum' dad, a ever-so-cute mom, (i'm kinda reluctant to include my sis but she'll freak out if i don't,so..) my cute and pretty sis. I have plenty of great friends who i truly appreciate. The best damn thing that ever happenned to me was i got the chance to goto japan for two solid weeks as a an exchange student for FREE. haha.

Still, the bad part of my life outweigh the good ones. I heard about the law of universe( i'm not sure about the name ) which states that if you think positively, you'll get the positive result. So now, i'm finger-crossed, hoping for my obsure luck will appear SOON.