The summary of 2009

It's 1.17 a.m right now. Somehow, my eyes are getting sleepier but i know very well the moment that i lie on the bed, my mind will go wild and it wouldbe endless again. Jia Li is having her last spm paper tomorrow, chinese. Thinking about last year, i was probabaly in Japan last year at this time, at Kinan, Osaka with my host family. I truly had a wonderful time there.

Within a month, it will be another new year, 2010. I wonder how time can passed really, just like a blink of eye. Think back, what have i actually done this solid year? I'm 18 this year, this year suppose to be fun, to be memorable, to be insane. Like when i'm 80 and i can told my grandchildren that ' yea, granny used to have or do that when i'm 18'. But am i?

At the very beginning of this year, i had gone through a very hard time. My granny died on 21st Jan. When daddy told me that i'm needed to goto kl to take care of granny because she's hospitalised, i was so frantic and wished that i was there beside her immediately. yea, i still remember that clearly. Thank God that give me this chance to take care and spend time with her and i was beside her, accompanied her thru her final night in this world. Although all of us are in deep grive, but deep down i'm happy that she didn't have to suffer anymore. Thanks for xx who was always there for me at the very moment, and also my friends that supported me.

Then, it's Feb and i was getting my car licence at the time. I became kakak in my house. I take care of all the house work, i cooked meal and etc etc. I'm so useless at that time that there are actually times where i stared and listened to the cloak ticking. Imagine that.

March. I got my spm result. I was over the moon at the moment and excited to go to serve my national service. My time in ns was never a dull moment. Wonderful friendship had been forged there. Kai jeck, lichen, bikun, sin yee, a sek, bean yao, mei yun.....oo..i miss you guys so so much!! Even though sometimes it's tiring and felt like giving up,thanks to xx who never fails to keep me accompanied and also my parents who are so worried about me and try to make everything possible to make me more comfortable. Endless additional food supply. haha. Yup, i did did some insane stuff while i'm serving my ns..hahahaha..That's the happiest time in my life i believe.

After my ns, here comes the toughest decision. Form 6 versus A level. i had did so many research, listened to opinion, balancing all the pro and con of both parties and finally, i'm in white shirt and blue dress, appeared in smch again. Till now, i never regret that i've chosen form 6 as my choice. Everyday, my mind is fullly loaded with chem, bio and that bloody math. Same routine everyday, school, eat, tuition, study, sleep and 'puff'---HOLIDAY!! and my boredom started.

I went to kl to celebrate bear's birthday on 4 dec. It was a blast. All of us enjoyed ourselves so much and themost important is bear's happy with all the surprises and her birthday celebration. After came back to kb, i have to do my homework, do some revision thati hated the most but what to do, i wanna get good grades that enable me to study overseas after stpm. it's my dream and i have to wark hard. no short-cuts. haiz.....

2 more weeks and i'm going to Bangkok with uncle's family. I'm kind of excited for that trip as firstly da ke is going too and i can't recall when is the last time i talked to him, hopefully can have some good memories with him in that trip. Second, do i really have to mention about it? Bangkok is a paradise for shopping, are you kidding me? ?? Haha..

My eyes are heavier than ever right now. Again, i'm finger crossed, hope that jiali and jia yi will be alright for their chinese paper tomorrow and my Bangkok trip will be a blast. And i'll miracally find my lost math notes.

Joy and Excitement

it's been a while since i updated my blog. To be honest, i completely forgotten my blog'd user name just now. I have to google myself. I started to suspect myself of getting short term memory.

Well, it's December. Last year when it approached December, I was overwhelmed with joy and excitement. Joy was that my SPM was over. We had our last paper, Account on 1st of dec if i'm not mistaken. Excitement is that i was going to Japan as a exchanged student on 3rd of Dec. Now, my sis are having the same trials and problems as i faced last year, but theirs are far more exciting. they are flood to worry about. I bet this would be a very good experience for them!! I still vividly remember when i had finished my account paper and waited the time to past and my SPM was finally over. That time, i thought that this was the very last time thati will appear in this school as a student in uniform. Well, who knows here i am, once again, as a form 6 student. i've taken the path to study form 6 and till now there's no turning back and i'm certainly not regret of the choice that i've made.

Excitement. The excitement that the Japan trip was simply AWESOME. I've actually learnt a lot of things there which cannot be explain verbally. It's that my perpective had changed and I know deep down, i have changed somehow, in a better way of course. And for sure, i had so so SO SO much fun there, many friendship had forged there, now i had friends from other states in malaysia and other countries, Aussie, Canada, India Phil and thailand. Oww, i miss them so so much. Emily, Jonrey, Toei, Tamara, Ellen, Katrina ...i just can't list down everybody here.. the list is too long. Hope that life is treating them well.

In 2 more days i will goto kl to meet bear them. It's been a while from our last gathering. Till now i still can't believe that we are actually having our own life and our own path, circle of friend, way of lifes and bla bla. Sometimes i will kind of worry for them , especially some of them who are having some relationship problems. How i wish that i could be there to maybe listen to them and slap those bastard. Hope that life treating them well too.

Once again, finger-crossed for everyone that i appreciate are in good condition may God bless them.